Bookcase : Pen on Paper
I moved about a week ago, across town and into a much smaller and already furnished place and thus, had to give up most of my belongings. I justified it to myself as cleansing but that didn't help me get over the eerie feeling I had while bargaining a price for my books. It just didn't feel like it was supposed to be that way. I had gone through my life just accumulating these little books as reminders of where I'd been and what I was into and it felt like I was selling the personal history more than the book itself. But then I cashed the check, got dinner and it quickly was replaced by more practical thoughts. I kept the books I really really love, did I really
need the others? So about a week later I got to doodling my old bookcase while sitting on the couch at Henry's house and I just got to thinking about how attached you can get to objects. I love that bookcase and how its shelves are impractically low and off kilter making it perfect for my "tiny" books and figurines. I also love that it came with some family photos circa 1981 in it too. I kept them in there, it's their house now. I suppose if I were smaller (about the size of a tiny book or a photo), I wouldn't mind living in the bookcase either. So yes, objects and ownership, deep thoughts for a Friday night. I really love the bookcase and I'm thinking about drawing other things I really love. Maybe get away from drawing people for a bit, though, to make it clear, I love people too. Maybe by drawing the things I love I'll never have to fully give them up because they'll fit nicely into my sketchbook and won't be a pain in the ass to move. They can all be about the same size and if I get bored, I'll make a me figurine and a tiny sitting room for tiny me and my tiny things.